Have you ever felt that there is so much to be done and you have so little time, and so much mess in your head and you just don't know how to deal with everything?
Well it's my usual state...
And now this almost gets me to tears... =>
Well actually it gets me to tears, and makes me depressed.
I feel like I really need to work much more on my art (I'm just a beginner), and the vast understanding of how little I really know is so frightening... Also I am so angry at myself. I am 27, soon 28 years old, and I wasted so much time on doing things I did not want instead of art. I don't have much money, I use it to pay for college... But we don't do there enough real studies... Actually sometimes I don't have any idea of what we really are doing there... Still this is one thing I really want to finish. But I'll graduate when I'm 30 or something... So I can not stop working and just draw all day long... Also where do you start? What studies should be done first to build your basics? How do you do them? Do you store them? how? How you fucking arrange your room so it will be convenient to work efficiently? (I am doing a lot of traditional work too.)
How do you draw fantasy things?
Each time I want to draw something from my head I have no idea of how to do this. How to design this? How to compose? How to make the shapes right? Shading? Perspective? It's like I don't know anything at all...
Seeing all those interviews with professionals, whom I really admire, who sit on their butts for 8-14 hours a day... How do they do this? How did they get to this level they can get paid? I mean how did they pay the bills when they were just studying, before they became good? Where is the time comes from? How do they manage their daily needs? Their state bureaucracy? Family? Friends? Outdoor times?
I feel like I want to cry since it looks for me like, "mission almost impossible".
Any advice\encouragement is warmly accepted... Actually it is very needed.